i dunno

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i swear i'd burn the city down
to show you the light

[Beautiful~Mistake]

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i believe in loving you at first sight
i know it's crazy but i'm hoping to
to take ahold of you...
could this be out of line?
to say youre the only one
breaking me down like this.
you're the only one,
i would take a shot on,
you keep me hanging on...
so contagiously.
oh youre everything i've wanted
come to think of it i'm aching.
will you welcome this confession?

[Beautiful~Mistake]

so i know that the procedure i'm going thru tomorrow
is something quite a few women experience..
and it's nothing to be worried about..
but..
i'm scared..

jay's still gone..
my mother can't go with me..
and the only friends i had left here moved to kamloops
when they heard i was moving there..

and now i'm not..

so there they are..
and here i am..

and i thought you said we're never really alone..
but i'm gonna be alone in the hospital tomorrow..
and then i'll be coming home alone
and spending the night alone
and..
why does this suck so much..

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i don't think we're going to get the house..
in fact i'm almost positive
that using his grandmother
as a reference
was quite possibly
one of the
worst decisions
i've ever made

i've been turned down for jobs here
because i beat up so and so's daughter
or i broke so and so's heart
or i have too many tattoo's
or i smoke
or i've no experience..
or i was a lippy lil fucker the last time i lived here
so what's changed?

i know ya say ya gotta make the changes you wanna see
but i can't exactly go into claudio's
and say
HEY YOU FAT GREASY WOP,
i'm here to beg for a god damn job
even though i'm not a coke whore
i'd be thrilled to
serve drinks in your
fine establishment..
while your sleazy crackhead clients
pinch my ass
but please!
i'd be more than happy to do it
for the meager $8/hour you'll pay me..
sweet smile
lil glimpse of cleavage
and there ya go..

how to reckon with crackheads 101

[Beautiful~Mistake]

laughs..
so i'm kinda bitter
i hate being sick..
blows my nose for the gazillionth time

[pmagic]

*hands u some tissues and boot polish*