A short story by Zoid

**Dr. Zoidberg** · September 2nd, 2004, 01:22 PM

PREVENTION

I picked up my first gun at the age of 16; I shot and killed my Supposable Step Father who abused my mother and me for years. I remember the sensation of it; I held everyone?s life in my hand. I could take life within a second. My mother was sentenced to Jail for 25 years for homicide. Everyone assumed my mother had killed my stepfather because a child war never capable of this kind of travesty. I laughed at this but only for a second, then was filled with remorse. I was assigned to an orphanage to be ?safe?. To bad for all the kids 43 lives were taken by me, not because they did anything wrong it?s merely because I wanted to feel that sensation again, like have an orgasm in theory. I noticed a Chapel I thought killing Religious fools would be a new excitement. I proceeded through the doors of the Chapel and I immediately dropped my gun. At that moment when I walked through the Chapel?s doors I had realized what I had done, I felt as if the 44 lives I took were haunting me at that moment. I fell to my knees and prayed, in which I have never done in my entire life, I begged for mercy. The pain inside caused me to vomit profusely, when I got over my nausea, the Rev baptized me. Now I?m a Nomad wandering the sandy crust of the earth helping those who need it, Hoping the pain would heal, but I quickly discovered that how many people I help, the suffering would never go away. Now I wonder if I can live with this, I help my .45 Revolver towards my head to finish what I had started. As I held it to my temple, I thought about how that sensation I wanted so badly, why though? How can a person be so blind to go so far as to killing someone to get that 5 seconds of bill then it?s over. Would destroying my life solve anything? If people didn?t commit suicide then the world would be extremely crowded. So should I? Am I that naive? Prevention is worth my life, May Heaven or Hell await. ::Click::

Eh I felt depressed so I wrote this it's not to well made but I like it.
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