... and so it begins...

**SHATOUSHKA** · February 13th, 2006, 03:07 AM

i no longer care about the preservation of
this place as it has once been known. i don't
even give a shit if it ever becomes something
popular, posted upon (other than by myself),
or even fucking visited.

it's been a long time coming... but i have
finally decided to make the move to "do something"
about this place... for my own business
and for my own in general. i have been
planning my 'come-back' (if you will) to
hostboard for about 5 months now... and
now is the time to do it.

my life has changed... in more ways than
just the obvious issues that i have some
control over.

i am tired of playing victim to the 'forces
that be' and have decided to just opt out
and throwing my hands up at it all.

in short... i no longer give a shit.

i've needed some positive fluidity in my
life for a bit... and i've come to the
conclusion that i am the only one that can
give it to myself. so that is just what i
intend to do. merry fucking christmas, shatzy!

i no longer care about keeping up with the
hype that once was... nor about the wholesome
bs that i was once apart of here at good
ol' hostboard. this switch is for myself...
and i figure the great span of time between
my last post and now will surely give a
much needed break from those that once
sought a break from me and my bullshit.

gracias.

i suppose that this ramble is just an minor
introduction to something that i have yet
to really define. hell, i'm not even sure
if i can honestly committ to it myself.
i have other shit going on in my life and
it takes a great deal of time (and precidence)
over this place.

at any rate, i've begun... and i intend on
keeping it for the unknown extent of time
that it is required.

i don't really give a shit if this makes
sense to any possible passerby... as it
is only meant for myself... to be read again
in time as assurance to myself (i guess).

* * * * *

let a sign be posted that anyone finding my
board removed from the place it once resided...
and venturing here has led to any possible
curiosity about me or the switch in general...
or hell, even a slight curiosity to post...

do what-the-fuck-ever you want.... but don't
fucking post if you don't want to. i don't
care.

i'm not here to make/keep friends and i'm
not here to venture beyond this category...
other than the occasional jaunt to admin
as needed...

so if that is any obscure intention to anyone...
forget it. it won't happen.
at least not for now... and quite possibly
not any time in the near future. heck...
i haven't really been online enough in the
last few weeks to even feel comfortable
typing with any relative accuracy...
but then again... who cares?

i guess what i'm saying...

if you came here looking for some old, beaten
down shatzy that once floated on these boards...
i don't exist like that any more.
that is not to say that i cannot 'become'
that again... but as i see it... it would
take a great deal for me to do it... and
i am unsure if its possible.

* * * * *

to any previous friends that happen here
and are curious if i intend on making this
board private...

the bottom line is -- i dunno.... maybe?
i just don't care enough any more to hide
from shit that once existed... and i don't
care enough to put out the effort.

hmmm... scratch that....

i am the 'same' in the respect that i'm not
taking any shit off anyone... and i'm sure
there are other 'hidden' aspects of 'me'
that i have yet to touch upon... but frankly,
i suppose i'll have to reacquaint myself
with myself before i can make any lofty
goals and desires.

what i do know is this...

i have been born again... and the waves
that have washed ashore to clean the sand
have made their way here... and all that is
past, remains past... and i am starting
again... right here, right now.

there are no ads... no gay text links...
no banned users... no old threads resurfacing...
no fucking riot... no nothing...

its just me... myself... and a vacant lot

righty-o!

* * * * *

i'm shatzy... nice to meet you...
now kindly do whatever it is you need to do

-- later

**NicKKK** · February 14th, 2006, 02:18 AM

And i was thinking the only exciting thing to come out of this very crap valentines day would be the cricket final against Sri Lanka.

I'm glad youre back. and glad you salvaged the whole bored.

**machinery** · February 15th, 2006, 04:39 PM

Hey shatzy...glad your back....as you say, you used to float on word and voice. I myself am back to..from a hiatus with the internet company...or maybe it was lack of money...hell...well i'm also back in school and i needed to the internet...

but i just wanted to say hello and invite you back to w&v ; it is in dire need of some people to play.

take it easy,

machinery

**SHATOUSHKA** · February 15th, 2006, 05:28 PM

hey nicknick... glad to know i was the huckleberry
on top of your valentines day. [img]wink.gif[/img]

machinery... *thinks of new name*....

mache (teehee)... let me tell you something,
i would gladly meander over to W&V to visit your
posties, but i seriously doubt you could ever top:

"our eyes expressed that our hearts will never"

that's pretty rich... especially considering
its probably the most fluid thing i've heard/read
in quite some time. kudos to you

i dunno how well of a poster i am going to be
on adjacent boards... just getting the feel for
this place again.

**Ivana** · February 16th, 2006, 09:59 PM

Shatzy, it's great to see you again. I missed having you around and I often wondered what you were up to and if you'll come back. Hope you're doing well and that you'll feel comfortable with HB again [img]graemlins/rose.gif[/img]

*edit to remove my sig as it doesn't go with the dark theme*

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**SHATOUSHKA** · February 16th, 2006, 10:19 PM

ivana-bobana-manafanabobana...

hey girl... [img]smile.gif[/img] surprised to see you pop in here
(especially since i only just posted a day or
so ago) teehee

i suppose i didn't expect any replies for quite
some time... but let me tell you... i'm glad to
see it.

don't be gay about removing your siggy, girl...
its always ok to post it.
haha... that reminds me...

the other day i was roaming the admin board and
saw some other person with a similar avatar
and i was like 'oh yeah! yummy!'... hahahahah
i'm stupid [img]tongue.gif[/img]

so good to see ya... i could just hug you
consider yourself hugged!!!!

*grins*

i'm in a weird mood... i don't think i'm posting
like i should be... BUT I DONT CARE!!! *insanely laughs*

boooooooooeeeeeeeeeeeeeep!!!!

**Ivana** · February 17th, 2006, 05:06 AM

A few days ago - I click on the link to this place and all I'm getting is a blank page. I can access other boards so I'm thinking - OMG, it's been deleted [img]eek.gif[/img]
I go to Hardcore and true, it's gone!!! I'm panicking. Why? Whyyy? [img]graemlins/cry.gif[/img]

I tell ya, I was so relieved yesterday when I found this place still alive, only at a different location [img]smile.gif[/img]

**Tard** · February 17th, 2006, 05:46 AM

Hi Shatzy. Nice to see you around. Was recently looking thru email address book and saw your addy, but as you'd been gone for such a long time, didn't figure you were checking yahoo any more than hostboard.

Thought Necropolis was deleted due to inactivity, until seeing a post in admin, following recent user posts, and lookee-here, moved to Alternative Lifestyles... [img]wink.gif[/img]