glowing, smiles with eyes & acceptance

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i've always loved what bama has to say...

[mRs.GaToR]

Paige...so many changes for you....and to see
your words....made me smile for you!

so many dark things in life try to take you down..
and learning to face the dark...and kick it in
the ass and say "no more...i am me now...and you
cant stop me anymore..." is one of the greatest
feelings you can ever feel....and the looking in
the mirror.....i know that feeling...cause i can
love me now...something i couldnt do 3 years ago
because i can face things that scare me and say
fuk off...

this past week...the lil men had a tough time cause
they had to press charges against their dad...
something that 3 years ago would have scared me to
death...facing him, worrying about him getting
even...but ya know what? i am at a point in my
life that it doesnt worry me cause i know he
cant hurt us anymore...it worries me to see the
lil men facing their pain and accepting their
dad will never change...he will always be an asshole.....
but them knowing they can tell the judge they dont
want to deal with him anymore and having their
say has put them at so much ease...especially
the youngest...he has started to let go of some
of his anger already!

i see that in you too...letting go of some of your
anger...and smiling...and that makes me smile too
cause Paige my girl...you are beautiful...inside
and out! [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img]

[Beautiful~Mistake]

hey lady
that sounds like arough time
the lil men are lucky to have ya on their side
that's for damn sure..
i'm kinda goin thru the same thing with my parents
tellin the judge i don't want nuthin to do with either of them
it's really scary..
my dad's all i got for family, anymore
and at the rate things are goin
i'm not even gonna have him much longer
so i hear ya..
tell those lil men to be brave,
n hug 'em for me, k

it's really empowering to be able to look at all the bad shit
and just say fuck awff
because it's our choice, right?
we can let it take our power away
or we can stand up for ourselves, right
because we really are strong..
and we really can endure..

[SummerStorm]

*swipes mytears that formed as i read this thread....mumbles* hormones*nods*...

Paigey...you really have come along way in the years i've known you...and i can't really tell you how proud of you i am or how proud i am to be your friend...you've been there for me as i hope i have for you....i luv ya gurl*hugs n smooches*

[mRs.GaToR]

i will hug them for you for sure! that is...when
they get home...they are out and about with
Grandpa tonite...boys night out ya know...*L*
my dad wanted to get them out of the house for
awhile..so they went to a sports show...

we endured our house inspection tonite by
Children and Youth...and passed with flying colors...
the ex had his inspection yesterday....he snow
balled the worker big time...but we go to talk
to him tomorrow...and lay things on the line
with him...and let him know...if he really cares
he will come up with the $3-4000 to take me to
court to get visitation back...cause im am NOT going
to make them follow the court order...im taking
the chance of being in contempt of the court order....
and make him pay for it! he is going to see the
new me...the one NOT afraid of him anymore...the
one that is going to lay it on the line for my
lil men...they have been so tough this past week
and have made me proud...and im gonna do the same
for them......and tell him to fuk off(since they
arent allowed to swear *L*)

Johnnie turned 16 on wed...and his dad never
called...no card...nothing...and that hurt him
more than his dad will ever know....i feel for
him...but it is just another point against his
dad...