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<center>Choke
choke
pride
Still I could only wait for you
to decide
Tear it all apart
You break my heart
Why don't you
follow through
Follow through
And the day ends
A so called friend
A drunken bed
How could you with...
Why would you...
All of them
No one owns you
Just keep me hanging here
Tell me you need me dear
Tell me you're sure I shouldn't fear
Lies
lies
lies
Choke
choke
please
Have another drink on me
My love
humiliation
I gave you every chance to leave
And you stayed just long enough
To bury me
As I understand what no one can see
I stop
And all these words seem selfish
And anger you
And none of it is true
But all of them confess until I choke...
choke
choke
choke
choke
choke
choke
choke
I thought I knew a true love
I used to think you really cared
I used to think I knew true innocence
I thought that you were that
I know you to well when you lie
I hope you choke on them
And see
for me
For me
And all these words seem selfish
and Anger you
And you were always true
Am I the only one that hears you lie?
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it's incredible..
how good ya feel..
when ya just say..
fuck it..
i don't need to worry..
or stress the small shit..
even if it's not so small..
i went home to dad's last night..
it was really nice to go home..
and sleep in a big comfy bed..
yeah.. i slept with a teddy bear...
because sometimes..
you just need to..
it makes me laugh..
i get to thinkin.,.
i'm a pretty independent person..
but when faced with the reality..
that my dad's leaving again..
i realize how much i need him..
even if
sometimes i don't want him..
and how..
i dunno..
i miss my big brother..
even though it's only been since december..
but..
i dunno where i'm goin with this..
i've got really strange family ties..
http://www.geocities.com/just_a_mino...me_j_nmark.txt
and i'm scared, you know..
my dad's leaving again..
and..
i don't know if i can do it alone right now..
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<font color="blue">you are never alone when you care as much as it seems you do...never...</font>
dave
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i know...
dave, thanks
my partner kinda laughed today
when i told him i was feelin alone..
cause, well,
i'm just inside my head..
and it's kinda lonely in there..
with the society of assholes..
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i know what you mean, i honestly do.
and sometimes it seems as if my world and its
inconsistancies and circumstances surround me
like it surrounds others in their own individuality...
like a bubble...
and my bubble bounces up against your bubble,
and my bubble bounces against other bubbles...
and although you can see out from the center,
you are in the middle of your bubble and your
arms cannot reach the edge...
so you pass similar bubbles... and understand
in some distant, relational feeling...
and usually all i can do.... is just nod as
my bubble bounces off
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that's an awesome way of looking at it...
sometimes..
as i'm sitting in a meeting
or just walking down the street..
but the grocery store is the best palce..
i look around at the people..
and picture them as fish..
and man.. let me tell ya..
it's some funny shit.. *L
