it used to be a dull ache
it was always there
pushing, causing pressure, making itself known
it would roar up sometimes, then fade
it kept me up at night
it pissed me off when i was out
now it's different
it really doesn't hurt much anymore
ever
i'm really surprised
but when it does
when it flares up like an icepick in the ear
and i flinch and want to yell or cry
that pain phantom stays with me all day
sometimes longer
and i think that's worse
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If you can't get what you want, change what it is that you want.
"We're lonely and isolated. We live in hairless bodies without exoskeletons - so fragile even thoughts can hurt us." -- Chilimuffin
In some far off place / Many light years in space / I'll build a world of abstract dreams / And wait for you -- Sun Ra
