Leaving wasn't something
I ever planned
it was just this idea
that got out of hand
I toyed and it played
I dreamnt and it gave me escape
I cried but it begged
I shouted but it didn't hear
it's fustration
it's anger
it's disapointment
hurt
but somehow
I just understood
it was part of letting go
part of saying goodbye
slowly with tension
my footsteps echo'd
as I found the courage
to walk away
200 hundred miles from home
in the middle of an old Wisconsin Bridge
I wonder if you can feel me
smiling
as I inhale the only freedom
I've ever smelt
the only hope
that wasn't just a dream
I had to live without
I think about your shoulders
tense against the wall
think about your fingers
bracing yourself
I think about your smile
& the symetry of your teeth
I think about your hands
tangled in my hair
I think about your pride
and how I'm not sure where to put it
I think about your strength
and the love that allowed me
to be the unexpected baby
you made the choice to keep
I think about my choices
and the things I've had to do
I think about the times I've been hungry
and the times I've hated you
I think about your beauty
you just don't see
I see you in my face these days
and I miss you
I miss you more then I thought I would
I miss the off key music you use to make
when you sang aloud
to bon jovi
just as loud as you pleased
I miss you knowing
how much of me
I got from you
as I watch myself
play with the rings on my fingers
just like I've seen you do
a thousand times or more
But mostly I hope you know
that leaving you behind
was the hardest thing
I've ever had to do alone
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