...the door slams behind me, my eyes grow dim, the single drop that has come from hurt has dried upon my face. She says we have something special, but what does that mean? She was changed in 1 night by him. We had 6 days of special kisses, hugs, roses, and poems, I cared about her so much. She brightedn my day when the clouds were so low that no light could pass by them. She broke up the harsh barrier that was in her way. She brought the smile to my face. She was so great. We had something that i thought couldn't be touched. So why does 1 single person change everything. Why does this pain in my stomach hurt so bad. I was broke, spent my last dollar on roses that meant nothing to her. She sat there so calmly so innocent, while i sat a couple of feet from her with wet tears rolling down my face. Pleading my case to her, and she walks through the room trying to keep her hands busy, not wanting to hear this, but its already to late. She hurt me so bad. She brought this pain that aches my body. I hate feeling this way. I still have strong feelings for her, but does she care? The day of the dark cold night she struck me with this news, was the night my heart was hurt so badly.
I want this pain to go away right now, possibly hours after she told me this she was in a mixed lighting, dark room, drinking away her thoughts. the fact that she hurt me so badly had no effecton her evening that just hurts me even more.
I come back to the room, drink the silver can down to its last drop. Grab another one....etc... Drinking this away will not help me one bit. I know this, but i really just want to feel better right now. She crushed my heart tonight. GOD! After 1 wee, I feel this strong about her! Its not love, its just something special. She just throws it away like nothing. When i walked out of her room she didn't try to stop me,...did she even care?...why did i walk into this so blindly? The one girl that i dont push away, pushes me away! I had this feeling that i was going to be hurt. I knew that i couldn't hurt her. I just couldn';t She was something really special to me. GOD am I pathetic. I like this girl this much after one week and she dumps me after 1 week. Silence will kill me so much in such little time. We shared many things together, more things i have shared with anybody else. I felt so good with her. I have ran out of words. I was so sweet to her and then...BAM a simple glimpse of the past took her back and just never looked behind her. She jumped over the perfect week we had and just fucked it all away..~~~~~~
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