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I have had to do something to stop me screaming any more at my daughter, please forgive me for using you all!
I have a video on which I have some stuff I've taped - Darren on Re:Covered and various other things, Blue in the airport docusoap, lots of bitty, special (to me) stuff...I need it to put something else on and it's vanished into thin air. My daughter has taken the video out of the machine, and despite being warned only TWO DAYS ago that it was special to me and she must put it in a certain place - it's not there. Not only that - it's not with any other videos either! And she doesn't remember what she did with it! It's clearly labelled, but it seems to have vanished into thin air!
I am going mad - I know I am over-reacting - probably PMS but even so.....I have to get away from her because I am scared I am going to damage her emotionally by being so over the top (haven't and wouldn't hurt her physically)....I am SO mad and SO upset and now I feel so bloody guilty for flying off the handle over something so trivial in the scheme of things.....
ANyway sorry, I just had to let fly and didn't want to do it at Joanna! *cries*
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Sue
I'm sorry hon I know how frustrating it can be at times. Its good you are taking a breather good for you and your daughter. Tomorrow you will wonder what all the fuss was about.
The tape will show up probably in the wierdest of spots.
Deep breaths
Hugs
Lain
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I'm sure your tape will show up.. and don't beat yourself up over getting mad it was something important to you.. once things calm down go out and talk to here I'm sure she'll understand. [img]graemlins/hug.gif[/img] agains
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Your not a monster your human like Krissy said don't beat yourself up.
Your daughter knows you love her. If she misplaced it she might remember later where it is.
Tomorrow tell her it would make you really happy if she could remember where it might be. (Kids love to make there parents happy)
Huge Hugs
Lain
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Thanks guys...I just really hate myself atm. I know it's my hormones but I really am such a total bitch when I get like that....I can hear myself screaming horrible things but it's like someone else is doing it and I am listening. [img]frown.gif[/img]
Anyway I apologised to Joanna for being so mean and gave her a big hug, told her how much I love her etc. I just know that an outburst like that will scar her for life....I was ranting on at her b4 and at one point she said she was going to kill herself. She's only just 6. What am I doing to her?
A fitting end to a really crappy day, one way or another!
Thanks for listening, sorry if I've upset anyone.
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I just know that an outburst like that will scar her for life.
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Sue, I seriously doubt that it will, hon [img]smile.gif[/img] from what I can make out, you're a good mother [img]smile.gif[/img]
*feels bad about going on at you for not replying to an e-mail of mine now*
Michelle
xx
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Sue
Keep reminding her you love her just the way she is.
Let her know you love her more than the tape she might be confused about it.
Hugs Hugs
Lain
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Don't worry Michelle, you didn't go on at me - you actually made me smile cos of the way you did it!
The trouble re Joanna (and Luke) is that this happens every few weeks and I do worry about it in my saner moments! Luckily I don't get violent against them, but I do throw stuff around and it must be so scary for a little one. *cries* I really feel so terrible....
Anyway I must stop feeling sorry for myself cos it's not going to change anything!
lalalalalala *is all sweetness and light*
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Yeah Lain - she's asleep now but I will reassure her again in the morning. Thanks.
And it's her birthday party later today too! Great start to the day that was eh?
(It was her birthday 4 weeks ago actually but we were on holiday!)
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Sue I actually so relate to you!
When I had my first daughter I couldn't control my hormones at all. They were like wild and I would throw things too. At my husband.(lucky for me I had bad aim, and he is a very calm and understanding person)
But my anger would just explode. Usually I am a very calm and happy person but it was like Jeckle and Hyde. Boom all of a sudden I didn't know what would hit me.
Have you ever spoke to your Dr. about it there are ways they can help with your PMS.
Hugs Sue
Your not alone
I am sure all mothers will have a story or two like this.
Lain
