My Big Gripe-Fest Thread

Maybe eris is right. Maybe trees are evil. I don't know. But I do know that I am sick and tired of feeling like crap all the time.
I hit my head end of March, felt ok, so I went out of town for a week to go to my aunt's wedding. Started getting headaches, and on the plane back home, the descent had my had spinning and my stomach turning. Just me, no bad flying. So I went to the doctor, who gave me a long lecture about head injuries, my stuborness, and stupidity. Gave me a prescription for pain meds, a not telling my teachers to f*** off, and told me to sleep a lot. Only it didn't go away, it got worse, and I started having all sorts of interesting problems. Per doctors instructions, I took myself to the ER where I got a CT scan. Fun. Yay. Especially the bit with long needles and injecting me full of strange fluids. All clear, my head is fine, again told to sleep it off, it'll take a while to heal, deal with it. So a month later I go back to the doctor with my weird complaints. She's worried. She sends me for an MRI and gives me the name of a neurologist. GREAT, EXACTLY what I want to hear. So I thank God repeatedly that I happen to have the miracle of health insurance, and make an appointment for the neurologist. Who tells me my MRI is clear and explains I have a chemical imbalance caused by whacking my head, complicated by severe lack of sleep. Because evidently I haven't had a good night of REM sleep in TWO MONTHS. Correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't that clinically insane? He puts me on meds for the lack of sleep and to stop the migraines. They work for almost a week, and then weeeeeeeee!!!!! I'm back where I started. I'm sleeping MORE than before the meds, not less, I still have migraines, and I'm still having all sorts of weird problems. I call the doctor, so they up my dose. I continue to suffer, so I call the office and gripe at the nurse about how crappy I feel until she agrees that upping my medication dosage AGAIN might NOT be the answer. So now I get to play with new drugs. I still don't have a job, I still owe my professors papers and homework (which I didn't finish because staring at all that white paper gives me migraines and makes me nauseous. And I'm bored out of my damn skull. I have never done so little. I am amazed at the daily habits of my cats, I can describe the daily movement of light through my garden. I've fine tuned a lot of weird cooking recipes (those which I haven't ruined by forgetting I'd even turned the stove on). Videos are not more amusing if watched upside down, my second cat must be schizophrenic cause she's sure as hell weird, german online radio stops at five in the afternoon, the apartment CAN be too clean, and I really miss bananas.
I have a list of things I'm not allowed to eat because they cause migraines.
Bananas? Sausage? I mean, the chocolate makes sense, but some of these things are weird. Any citrus juice, and I can't make and eat homemade bread anymore!!!! I just want my fried bananas. I want a peanut butter sandwhich. I want a frikkin job. I'd like to be able to think coherently about something besides The Matrix. I'd like to be able to read a good book without feeling ill! I'd like to stay awake for more than 8 hours at a time without feeling like crap. I want to see a movie in the theatre and not have migraines from the flashing lights. I want to be able to drive my car at night.

*EXPLODES*

*crawls off to bed. again*

*BIG huggles*

Eek gads! *big hugs*

Are the new drugs helping? Are they going to be a permanent fixture, or will the imbalance go away after a period of time?

I hope you start feeling better soon. :)

Oh dear god, I sincerely hope its not a permanent fixture. I'm not actually scheduled to start the new meds for another two days. Have to let the old ones leave my system first.
Thanks for the hugs and stuff.
But I forgot the funny parts!!
Such as: To get that concussion, I walked into a tree. Yes ladies and gentelemen, walked. Not ran, not jumped, walked into a tree branch. I do feel better knowing that three of my friends missed hitting the same branch by sheer chance, because they didn't see it either. And all of this is even weirder because my nickname at school is Tree. My roomate has been telling everyone "Tree fought a tree and the tree won." If you say it fast enough it leaves heads spinning. I like watching people's jaws drop open and their eyes crinkle up as they try to puzzle it out. cause people can't think with their mouths shut!

One of the pieces of paper I got from my doctor said not concussion, or head trauma, but (get this) Acute Deceleration Syndrome. I laughed my butt off at that one.

All these medications seem to have one thing in common. They make you hungry.... Because I wasn't eating enough as it was! Now instead of eating one cow a day, I guess I'll be eating two. My roomate nearly died laughing. The neruologist said I should gain a pound or two. "Not that that will hurt you any!" Ha ha ha. I suppose its better than my skinny butt getting any skinnier. I was really sick at one point in highschool because the medicine my doctor gave me squished appetite.
Its supposed to make me crave sweets. Oddly, the only things I crave are chocolate (which I can't have anyway due to the whole caffeine allergy thing), key lime pie, and white wine. Why white wine I have no idea. But I crave that taste. And bananas.

Having a concussion made tyle cynical. But my cynicism and sarcasm evidently make tyle funny, because my roomate says I've become an absolute riot. Hmm. Maybe I should hit my head more often. Or maybe it was just the lack of real sleep which made me so humorous.

I have discovered that sitting down too fast, even onto really soft surfaces, can feel exactly like slamming my head into a brick wall. Who knew? How weird.
I had a good laugh anyway. When I wasn't griping anyhow.
Erm.
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(To show how funny Tyle is now, I thought the name of this thread was "grape-fest" upon first glance. Ha-ha!)

That's strange so much trouble is coming from just walking into a tree. Did you hit it with your forehead? I slammed the back of my head into the bottom of the freezer door while unpacking groceries one time but didn't experience anything like what you are. I took some tylenol later that night then threw up, but that was it.

I'd gripe about my load of schoolwork here, but it kinda pales in comparison. Maybe later.

Hope you feel better Tyle.

You know, all of a sudden, my minor bouts with insomnia seem really inconsequential. Babe, I hope you can hold it together long enough to see this through. I wish there was something I could do to just make it go away. But look at the bright side, if it lasts another couple of weeks, you and I might come up with the mythical hidden plot in Matrix.

I think you need to invest in a detachable head. *hugs*

Yikes! *hugs*

Hope you get better soon.

*BIG HUGS*

Have the doctor's suggested your eyes be looked at? I know some of that stuff can be caused by eye strain.

I hope you feel better soon.

*extra hugs*