More Bad Luck

My friends, It looks like I'll be saying goodbye again, and this time hurts sooo bad.

Friday My wife of almost 8 years told me she dosen't love me & we are going to split up. I got no money put back, I can't keep this worthless job I have, because I can't get back & forth to work, And I can't afford a cab ride back every day that would be nearly $15 dollars a day, So I'm waiting for a phone call from my brother, hoping he can find room for me to stay with him. We just notified the Landlord that we are splitting up so we have until the end of August to make some sort of arrangements.

I am scared, hurt, and confused about what the hell is going to happen to me. She went to have the internet disconnected so I don't know how long I can post here, I will not be able to go to the library, but If my brother will let me stay down there, he has a computor, I will try to check back with everyone as often as I can, because I have come to care for the people that I post with, you can never know how much.

Please pray for me, I'm in such turmoil right now.

wow, rog, that's some heavy stuff....
we'll all be here when you get back,
go take care of you...
may a spot of sun shine on your sidewalk...
all my best
paige

omg ROger......YOU definitely have my prayers...

Don't give up on faith....and love...because you have the greatest
love of all....He will never let you down...and
He will never give you more than you can handle..
You will get through this even though it doesnt
feel like it right now...as I said on my board..
you both have my prayers...because it sounds like
your "wife" needs it too...to make the right
choices...

All your friends will be waiting right here for
you, that wont change ever....you are stuck with
us now!

i am hoping this is some kind of wicked joke...
if not-it saddens me greatly.
i remember well you writing such nice things about your wife...
keep faith in your higher power roger...good, strong, positive thoughts go out to you.

dave

Love is a very powerful word, Love is something I never understood, thought about, or was capable of doing for my first 35 years of life. I'm pretty sure I loved my Mom, but I don't think I ever told her that. I can't explain why I had a heart of stone for all those years, I wasn't abused or anything, We were poorer than dirt, but I think I had a happy childhood.

I was always an outsider, I never fit in, or had any close friends. After I kicked the drugs and got straightened out & moved back here to Illinois, I met Julie, she pursued me and we had a whirwind romance, she moved in with me and we got married within a year. I loved her with all my heart, I would make any kind of sacrifice for her. We had petty arguments from the begining, but they were never major, She came from an abusive marraige, & I never once raised anything but my voice. For the past year, everytime we had an argument she would throw out "Why don't you pack yer bags and leave", After we calmed down, I would tell her, "I love you, I'm never gonna leave"

Then in the last month, I kept catching her in little lies, about phone calls, errands that never accomplished what they were for, a sudden intrest in yahoo messanger and the computers history being deleted. Then Friday night, I caught her on the phone with some guy, we got in a fight, and she hit me with this load of crap. She said she hasn't loved me for a long time, she wants to be friends but we need to seperate for a while so she can have room to sort her feelings...

Saturday, we both had to work, I got sent home because of heat exhaustion, She said we had to talk in the morning.Sunday morning she woke me up about 7: in the morning saying she was going to see her daughter and we would talk when she came home, Guess what, she didn't come home, she went to see this mystery A=hole. I was worried to death about her, she took our cell phone, she had our cash, she took the car & I was stranded her walking the parking lot and apartment. This morning she walked in and said you can stay her, I'm gonna move in with...whatever his name is.

Now how the hell am I gonna do that? I make less than $200 a week, She is taking the car, so if I wanna keep my job, I'll have to take a cab, Its over $6 per ride, thats nearly 15$ a day, that would be 75 a week, leaving me with a monthly income of less than 500 a month, minus 250 for rent, my meds are 125, and I got this bad habit of likeing to eat.

she don't trust me with the car, so I had to quit my job, I only have one alternative and that is if my brother will let me move back to our moms house, If he won't. then I'm back on the streets, I don't want to be homeless again!!!

Please pray for me

Roger,

I had to find your page and offer some kind of help to you. Please check out this site:
http://www.astrazeneca-us.com/conten...am/default.asp
I found it when I watched the Montel Williams Show and I sent for the pamplets on this organization. They offer free or low cost $5.00 per rx. All you have to do is call them and they will send you the application or you can do it online and take it to your doctor to fill out for the meds that you need. Send in the $5.00 per script and the meds will be either sent to you or your doctors office.

From being a social worker, I have learned of many places that will give you a help up if assistance is needed. Please contact the following places.

1. United Way First Call for help (this should be the first number you call for they will be able to direct you to all the agencies that can help you out with one single call)
2. Catholic Charities (medical, utlitiy help)
3. Your local Health Dept for free/low cost medical help.
4. Goodwill Industeries for vouchers
5. Salvation Army
6. HEAP for utilities
7. Your local Food Bank
8. HUD for housing
9. Your local medicaid/food stamp office
10. Local Church's in your area many are able to help out.

I know right now things may seem bleak and out of control, but please contact any or all of the above. I wish you all the best and may God hold and guide you through this rough time.

Pickles

I forgot PARTA they can offer low cost or vouchers for transportation.

Take care. *hugs*

http://www.freemedicinefoundation.co...FRN7NAod8QLnOg

This is the correct link for rx help for $5.00

1-573-996-3333

My dear friend, this will only make you stronger. Keep your faith and that postive attitude of yours.
I'm truely sorry that this is happening to you but you are not alone. You have friends here and we all are sending strong positive thoughts your way.
You know where to find us and trust me, everything will work out just fine for you!!!
*luv ya

i'm so sorry, Rog... *huggs*... remember that we all love ya and will be thinkin of you.... [img]graemlins/heart.gif[/img] [img]graemlins/rose.gif[/img]

Sorry to hear all that shit Rog.. Hang in there bud.. It's got to get better.... I just know it!
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Thinking of you. So very sorry about all this Rog. Hope you return soon.

Oh honey we all going to be here for you and you are in all our prayers

Ill be thinking about you try and check in to tell us all that your doing ok,

This looks like my last post until.... They are shutting us off in the morning, I pick up my final check tomorrow & I got to try & find a way down to my home town (90 miles), and try to find my brother or someone who can let me store my stuff, Then I gotta find some of my old friends (That I haven't seen in several years) & see if I can find someone with a pick up or van who would be willing to help move me for not much cash. Oh yeah and get it done within 2 weeks so we can clean this apartment and not have to pay stupid ass fines.

I appreciate all of you and your thoughts and prayers. Pickles your hints will come in handy over the next 60 days as I try to start from Zero and battle back onto my feet.

My friends, please keep an eye out for each other and for those that believe, please keep praying. It may be a while, But I WILL SEE Y'ALL AGAIN!!!

roger

It won't be the same without you Roger!
You are a good man and deserve a happy turnaround.
I'll be concentrating my thoughts and prayers in that area!
Take care of yourself, my friend!
And hurry back home to your internet family!
We'll leave a light on for you!
Good luck Mr. Ella!
Gus

Roger, I'm sorry I didn't see this before now.
I wish you all the best and hope you can be back with all of us soon.
Keep your chin up. *HUGGS*

Roger, I just noticed this now. I am sooo sorry to hear about everything you are going through.

I am sure I am speaking for everyone in saying that our thoughts are prayers are with you!!

Hello my Friends, Thank you for all the prayers & good thoughts, they Do make a difference.

I couldn't get hold of my brother for a couple of weeks, because he has a spot at a campground over in Indiana. My sister picked me up and brought me down here. I have slept on her floor for a few nights, and a couple of friends have let me crash with them. I am kinda bouncing from one space to another.

I am trying to get a low income apartment here, If I get it My rent would be $23 a month, but I have to come up with a deposit and another deposit on the utilitys, I am trying to get help from the local charities and I should know something by the end of next week.

My faith is still strong, my emotions are (nearly) under control, and I'm looking forward to the future.

Thanks again everyone for your support, From the bottom of my heart, I really do appreciate it.

Take care.

jollly rog [img]wink.gif[/img]

You keep up the Spirit Rog and this will be a distant memory some day!!!

Every cloud has a silver lining!
Hang tough my friend!
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Gus

*hugs ya my friend and sends ya my luv*

If Friends were gold, Then I am a rich man...Thanks

rog

things will work out, rog... don't worry... you're too much of a good, kind-hearted person for them not to... *squeeeeezes ya*....

Roger,
I'm so sorry for what happened with Julie. I haven't been around too much in Aug and just found out. I know it seems like everythings going wrong but you have many people on this board that love and care about you. Please keep us informed when you can and just know that you are in my prayers also.
Your friend
Mike

Roger,

I've been thinking about you. And it is so good to hear from you. You continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Take care of yourself and please stay in touch when you can. *hugs*

A quick wave and a hug to let ya know I havent forgotten ya!

Thank you Miz Pez [img]graemlins/rose.gif[/img] , You have been a wonderful friend and I am grateful that we have had a chance to meet (through the wonders of Cyber-space [img]wink.gif[/img] )

With the help of the local charities and my brother & sister, I have found and moved into a one bedroom apartment on the other side of town. I am slowly adjusting to being alone. I am praying that the Lord will open some doors toward my disability claim, I will leave it in his hands as He knows my wants & my needs. [img]graemlins/angel.gif[/img]

I am able to use my brothers computer, but he is <u>always</u> on the run and this area only has dial-up capabilities, so posting is a major pain, but I am grateful for what is available.

Take care of each other and try to spread a smile....

roger

Roger, I am so glad you have a place to call
home....things will work out for you....and I
am continuing my prayers for you....Have a
wonderful holiday weekend! [img]graemlins/rose.gif[/img]

Shares my smile with ya,...

AND

my homemade cheesecake [img]biggrin.gif[/img]

Sounds like a good start Roger!
Thanks for the Ella Update!

Hope to see ya hereabouts more and more and more and more!

More later,
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Gus

Thanks and a big ol'hug sent to Mrs Gator, Miz Pez, and Cherry_Pie, And a firm handshake for my Desert Bud, Gus Danger.

I appreciate you stopping by from time to time, posting and helping keeeping this site alive

Hi Ella, just a quick hello from your friends across the pond at the Cyber Lounge Sorry to hear you've been having a bad time. Hope things get better soon and we all look forward to seeing you back here, even for a quick visit.

<font color="#000000" size="1">[ September 25, 2006 05:41 PM: Message edited by: Nathan de Gargoyle ]</font>

Hello Gargoyle, Thanks for checking up on me. I haven't visited my frinds across the pond in a while. I appreciate you leaving the link, it will help me to find everyone since I'm on my brothers computer and don't have access to "My Favorites" right now.

I'll stop by and visit as soon as I can, Take care my friend.

Yeah, I thought I'd better leave a link as i couldn't remember how many boards we had managed to get deleted since you last visited. [img]wink.gif[/img]

Keep your pecker up and come and register soon

Roger I have been away most of the summer
and I am so sorry man, I miss you pal and I
feel like I have let you down you are in my
prayers send me a recent address or some where
you can recieve mail I WANT TO HELP.

God Bless WARREN

Warren, Hows my canadian friends? I hope all is well, It is great to hear from you, I get to use my brothers computer sometimes to post & I had noticed your absence from the Cherie board. I send my regards to Mommy-to-be Chantale.

Dude, , If you have sent good thoughts & prayers my way, You have <u>Not</u> Let me down.

Take care, Wolfie.

rog

Let me say HEY to Rogers friend Wolfie Warren...You sound like a really wonderful person so let me shake your hand [img]graemlins/thumbs_up.gif[/img]

Clambers onboard..

Hi Roger, better late than never. Just come off the back of a barnstorming performance by the New York Dolls on UK TV. I'm sure it'll be on youtube but it was truly matchless.

I'm very sorry to hear thenews. In fact I was very surprised because I recall the webcam photo of you and your Wife and just assumed 'what a great couple and what a close family'. Well..I can count the number of people I know still married and happily on one hand so maybe I'm not totally surprised to be honest. I always enjoyed your photographs most of all, Rog and also Nat up in the Adirondacks. Mybe because theyre of a -slightly - foreign country although in reality the Brits have far more in common with the USA than Europe. Why else would I be so fanatical about the Dolls and the Runaways. Both are fantastic live.

I hope you pick up two things. The camera and the guitar. And if those two fail to uplift the spirit then look upwards to the Main man.

And id that fails you - for fcuk sake the Spirit needing lifting is the Whisky bottle (but in moderation!!)

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Welcome aboard ya scurrvy dog, Glad to see ya had favorable winds as ye journeyed across the big pond.

I'm gonna visit as often as I can Black Dog, and I appreciate yer kind words, and be sure, I'm bouncing back faster thanI imagined.

Take care my Friend, and thanks for stopping by.

rog

Good Lord, that is a lot of drama to unleash on a message board for strangers to read. Try spell check also.