blargh

[Beautiful~Mistake]

what does the ftw stand for....
....fuck the world

i'm sick as a fuckin dog...
all this shit it brings me down
and somehow i rise above
but now it's...
fuck...
just fuck..
my head feel like a rock ceoncert
even though it was playin before the cold
i.. just... feel... like... shutting... down...

i've got this..
fucking..
amazing man in my life..
and my shit keeps gettin in the way
and i'ms cared..
man i'm so scared..
that he won't understand..
but he should, right
because we both come from the same place...
for the same thing..
so he,
os all people,
should get it, right?
i don't pray to be understood..
i pray to understand
...

and all this shit, man..
i dunno..
it's like..
everything's fucking great
like there's not a god damn thing wrong int he world
and then..
one thing hits me
and then another
and another
and before i know it..
i'm sitting there in the dark
alone
and crying
and wondering why
i'm fucking powerless..
fucking helpless

and ic an't stop sneezing
and ic an't stop wondering
what it would have been like
if i had said one thing different
or if i had turned that corner
5 blocks back
or,
you know?

i think...
it's hardest
to know
i mean, i know..
that i can't do anything
to change a situation
i just have to deal with it, right
but that doesn't make it hurt any less
it still fuckin...
i dunno, man..

maybe it's just the cold
and the fact that i can't put two and two together

but..
you know,
i know
my defects
i know
my problems
i'm well aware
of the bad shit i do
and..
and i don't..
and people keep pointing it out to me
and it's like..
hey man, fuck you!

blargh..
and now i gotta go to a staff meeting..

[Beautiful~Mistake]

*lmfao...

When i get mad
And i get pissed
I grab my pen
And i write out a list
Of all the people
That won't be missed
You've made my shitlist

For all the ones
Who bum me out
Shitlist
For all the ones
Who fill my head with doubt
Shitlist
For all the squares who get me pissed
Shitlist
You've made my shitlist

[Beautiful~Mistake]

I've got a word of thanks
Thanks that i'd like to say
For the rage that i feel
For the rage that i feel today
Gotta stack
gotta stack
Stack of chips on my shoulder
In everything i do
Cause i made
i made
i made
The mistake,
the mistake of trusting you

People like you just fuel my fire
People like you just fuel, yeah

My layers are thick
And i got a bad attitude
Yeah that knife in my back
Has fingerprints that belong to you
Gotta grudge
gotta grudge
gotta grudge
That i'm holding for you
As long as i live
'Cause you lied
you lied
you lied
And that's something that i can't forgive
You liar

People like you just fuel my fire
People like you just fuel, yeah

[Beautiful~Mistake]

The first day that I saw you
I thought you were so fine
I thought that you could be,
that you could be the one
I took me week and weeks
To get the nerves to talk to you
I had such very high hopes
That you could bethe one

You think that you are hot stuff
Think that you're pretty cool
But in my deck of cards now
You play the fool!
And when I look back on it
On all the wasted time
I spent just thinkin about you
And wishin you were mine

I had the fever but the fever is gone
I don't want you anymore
Tryin to shake you but you're holdin on
I don't want you anymore
Thought you're right but you're Mr. Wrong
I don't want you anymore
Sad but true I'm over you!
I don't want you anymore

I had such very high hopes
That you could be the butter for my toast
Well in my mind
You were red hot
But it turned into a long shot!
Because I guess in time
Well I just changed my mind
Becaue I guess inside
Well I just changed my mind!

Started off but didn't last long
I don't want you anymore
Tryin to shake you but you?e holdin on
I don't want you anymore
Thought you're right but you?e Mr. Wrong
I don't want you anymore
Sad but true I'm over you!
I don't want you anymore

[Beautiful~Mistake]

*L... the best way to fix a bad day..
angry punk chicks...
..... i like you better when you're dead

[Beautiful~Mistake]

i'll stare in the sun too long And burn my eyes out. I'll hold my hand on the stove And melt my flesh off. Dare me to jump and I'll be the first, Can't push me too far cuz I'm always the worst! I'll be the one who's actually dumb, I'll be the one to do the things that no one's done. I'll be the first one to take the dare, Cuz I'm # 1! I'm not scared! I'll shave my nose off, I'll chop my baby toe off, I'll tattoo my eyes from the inside, So I can see it! I'll pierce my colon, So my shit comes out like Play Dough. I'll knock my tooth out, I'll slice my ear lobe! You can't stop me, You can't shock me, I'm too crazy! Cuz I'll chop off my leg, I'll tattoo my head, And don't think I won't fucking do it!