1yr ago today ...

**imported_MOX** · August 21st, 2008, 01:10 PM

about this exact time I found my best friend dead...I had been staying at his house with him for about 4 nights and on the last night we passed out watching a movie around 5am, me on the couch and him in the floor. I woke up about 730 to him snoring and could not go back to sleep so I went and got in the bed, woke up again around 12 and he was sleeping on the couch, snoring away so I went back into the backbedroom to watch the little league world series for a while then went back to the living room around 1 to wake him up and he was laying on the couch dead ...died of a heartattack in his sleep and for so long I couldnt help but blame myself for not waking him up sooner then it might not have happened...I just want everybody to keep Brent Balls family and friends in your prayers, I know Im having a really hard time today

Brent Cedric Ball --- I miss you brother, theres not a day that goes by that I dont think about you

12-30-83 to 8-21-07

**Unchained** · August 21st, 2008, 01:14 PM

You and his family are in my thoughts and prayers today. I know all too well the pain of having to bury a loved one.

**steer** · August 21st, 2008, 02:35 PM

in my thoughts and prayers

**imported_MOX** · August 21st, 2008, 02:56 PM

I appreciate you guys...We are having a memorial service for him today at 5pm at the grave site...I just talked to his mom a lil while ago and shes having a real hard time today as well as his lil sister, shes like 11 or 12. I know everyone here has lost someone that they truly loved and its real hard sometimes. I remember when I first found him, it took it a lil while to really settle in with me, its like I couldnt believe it really happened. I considered Brent a brother more than I did a friend, anytime we'd introduce one another to somebody we'd always say hey this is my brother Brent, not my friend. We always argued over who was Brent #1, he always had to be #1 so Id let him get by with calling me #2. But we was together almost every single day for 5 or 6 years, we did everything together. Like I said eariler, it was real hard being the one to find him bc I felt like it was my fault and for a little while I had others who wanted to blame me but there was nothing I could have done. I dont wish that anybody would have been in my shoes and had to be the one to find their best friend dead. I hated being the one to go thru that but I also am very grateful that I got to spend his last hours on this earth with him. Its just so crazy, he seemed absolutely fine the night before, ya never would have thought a thing was wrong with him, then to wake up to that seemed so unreal to me for a while. But I appreciate your thoughts and prayers!!

**imported_drgnfly3030** · August 21st, 2008, 03:27 PM

Blessings to you and his family and friends on this tragic anniversary.
I understand all too well about sudden deaths and blaming yourself. I've gone through that many a time in my life. Just remember the good times you guys had and that he is in a better place now.

**Unchained** · August 21st, 2008, 04:00 PM

Not a big fan of his,but his tribute to his friend was awesome,and it reminds me of what you are going through today amigo

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**rthack71** · August 21st, 2008, 04:18 PM

i lost my best friend 6 years ago in a farming accident i think about him everyday .My daughter was born on august 8th i wish he was still here so i could call and tell him but i believe he sees her from heaven.

**R13** · August 21st, 2008, 05:26 PM

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Good good song, but sad as it gets. Prayers are with you MOX.

**starbuck** · August 21st, 2008, 05:53 PM

here is my song for situations like this.

Guardian - See You In Heaven - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RwAQUHeA9vU

**imported_MOX** · August 22nd, 2008, 07:54 AM

Thats what we we're talking about yesterday ...me and my other best friend(him and brent were like brothers too, they grew up together from the time they were born) are both gon have babies here soon ....my wife is about 10 weeks pregnant now and his girlfriend is about 8 weeks...the 3 of us always talked about our kids growing up together and each of us was gon be the godfather to one of the kids, now me and J are both about to have kids and Brents not gon be here to enjoy that with us