feelings.

[Thanos]

I'm bored and i fucking ponder to much.

When ever i used to get depressed, i would come here, and post about it. It helped somewhat then. Now it dont.

I feel worthless, like there is no point to my life. in 25 years what have i accomplished? not a god damn thing.

so i question my life, do i even deserve a life? no.

fuck i tried to turn to "god". but i get nothing, you know isnt this the guy that is supposed to always listen? a lot of fucking thanks there. I have no lover, or significant other, so no one to share anything with.


fuck it, i dont even know what to say anymore.



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I'm a teenage christ...
I've got a date with suicide

[virtualNYC]

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.

?Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You?d walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints.
I don?t understand why when I needed You most You would
leave me.?

The Lord replied, ?My son, My precious child, I love you and would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I
carried you.?



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"The only people for me are the mad ones the ones who are mad to live mad to talk mad to be saved desirous of everything at the same time the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue center light pop and everybody goes awww!" Jack Kerouac

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[LORD HIGH BEAR]

What is it that you fell you need to accomplish? Are you looking for the "meaning of life"? The people that look for the meaning of life never find it.
There is isn't one. You are here, that's it. Don't waste your time trying to make something out of your life, spend that time having fun with it.

Go out to the bars ralf, and find the hottest chic in there. Than buy her a drink. See what happens. As for being rejected....shit, we don't have time for that in life. Go find someone else.

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From the foggy mists of the Medicine Bow Forest.

First member of:
Gangstas of Luv

Herbalicious

"By my deeds I am known, And I am known as Jack. Springheel Jack, Jack the Ripper. By my deeds I am known. And my deeds are truely bloody. I took them into my heart; Mary Anne Nichollas, Annie Chapman, Elizabeth Stride, Catherine Eddows, Mary Kelly. And loved them, truely loved them all."

[The Reverend Dark Angel]

You have low self esteem, I think we all know that. You need cheering up and reminded of what you've done in this life from time to time, we all do, it helps to remind us that not only are we not alone, but we're also more than we believed ourselves to be.

Now you're twenty - five, you don't have a genius level IQ, congratulations, you're not going to masturbate for the rest of your life and go insane and conduct animal experimentation with vegetable additives. You aren't supposed to have accomplished a great deal by this age. When you're a kid you're supposed to just have fun, learn what a kid needs to know and have no worries. When you're a teenager you're supposed to worry about losing your virginity and you're supposed to wonder why there's hair growing down there. You're supposed to learn what they teach you in Junior High and High School, but you don't, you know you don't, you've already forgotten most of it! You're supposed to dedicate yourself to getting laid and getting behind the wheel of a car! Congratulations, you passed being a teenager. Now you're an adult, well, you're in the beginning stages of being an adult. This is the time for you to experience what the world has to offer, this is a time for you to figure out what you want to do in life. This is where you prepare. You're not going to make a million dollars overnight, especially since you don't play the lottery. You're not going to drive around in a Lamborghini Diablos and party with the Playboy Bunnies down in the Grotto any time soon. But hey, there's always tomorrow! And as for your accomplishments thus far, beyond getting past puberty and teenage angst and life. You have something that many people in this world cannot have no matter how badly they pray or wish for it, you have a child. There is a part of you in that child. This is someone you can teach, someone you can help to aspire to be better than you, than me, than anyone. The greatest warrior was not born a great warrior. He was taught by his elder, by his mentor. You've accomplished giving life to another, now you have the opportunity to make that other's life something great. The only way you'd be worthless right now is if you were dead, because what the hell would you accomplish or being accomplishing then?

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It astounds me that everyone wants the greatest, but only a few are willing to reach for it.

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[Whyatt Thrash]

Sounds like you've got way too much unwanted time alone to think about youself in bad ways. You need a hobby, man! ^__^

Hope you get out of the slump. If nothing else, look forward to the beer we'll be having together... sometime... soon...

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"Everyone's looking for something, and the absent somebody else who knows what it is."

[DARKsyde]

As a my dear friend to once felt the same way that you and many other's feel. I too once was a victim to this game? I really shouldn't call it a game. It's a very reall ordeal and it can cause great pain and suffering to many other's around you. I once became so depressed that I lost control over my life and I fliped into a very dangerous indvidual. That's when I relized that I needed help, See when it happend to me I was in the military and I wanted to shot a specific person(Unnmaed). But I was then givin a choice of seeking physicatric help or going to prison. I knew if I was sent to prison I would die there. So I got help.

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Darkness souround's you from all point's from beyond.From child birth to even death. G.O.L

[vampiro]

well honestly im not gonna spend my time by trying to help you with something that only you can handle but just to let u know Ralf your NOT alone ok im going through the same thing to (or have u won?) my girlfriend says the babys mine and well i dont honestly know im very scred cuz if its true then im a father and i have to grow up but then again if im not then the babys gonna grow up without a daddy SO im kinda stuck cuz i have a heart and if its not mine ill probably end up taking care of it some how lol
but the only problem i have no feelings for the babys mom SO its kinda like CRAP to put it bluntly
well Ralf Honestly this isnt Vampiro talking this is Travis talking to you man your not alone in whatever u do hell it may be internet but were still friends even though weve had our misunderstandings in the past