transcendence

**SHATOUSHKA** · August 5th, 2004, 08:11 AM

there is something wrong with me.....
something horrific in my head....
its making me sick... and burdensome....

something terrible oozing through my veins
its thick and black like tar...
expressing stark colors like that of rain and neon...

~ ~ ~

poor, wayward girl....
gone mad in her own obsessions and delusions....
mad with hope and disenchantment....

drowning in her own idiocy..... and faith

her world is not meant for ophelia....
she was shallow drowned

shallowdrowned

**SmokinLizzies** · August 6th, 2004, 08:03 AM

That?s it, enough is enough, and I?m standing up to this.
One of the most commonly known philosophies is,
**people love to see others suffer,
it makes them feel their own life isn?t that crappy.**

STOP FEEDING INTO IT!
Don?t make me start smacking you around?

You?ve gone be on expressing your thoughts and feelings.
I?m not being crude. Someone needs to talk to you.
You?ve been ?here? before. It shall end like all things do.
It is good to get your emotions out in the open,
rather then buried deep.
But you?ve reached a point that you might be befitting people?

?you don?t want to.

I may get flamed for this post,
but you?re better then this Allie,
everyone knows it.

GET UP, GET STRONG, and if needs be, GET EVEN.
I promise not to harp on you again. I?ve said my piece.

I think I can safely speak for mostly everyone and say,
None of your friends like seeing you like this, it hurts us too.

**Blazey** · August 6th, 2004, 01:46 PM

Originally posted by Resident Guitarist:

I may get flamed for this post,
but you?re better then this Allie,
everyone knows it.

GET UP, GET STRONG, and if needs be, GET EVEN.
I promise not to harp on you again. I?ve said my piece.

I think I can safely speak for mostly everyone and say,
None of your friends like seeing you like this, it hurts us too.

<font size="4" face="Tempus Sans ITC, Tahoma">no flames from me..I want our Alison back too..and i want her happy..whatever it takes..

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**demon chloe** · August 7th, 2004, 03:21 AM

Well, I agree yes and no. Will she be okay? Probably. Do we want to see her like this? Nope. Should I keep talking about her like she's not here? Yep. Well...ya know.

But, it's okay to feel whatever it is inside you. But, when you say you're burdensome...or idiotic... well, then people have to step in.

You're not any of those things. You might feel like you're as far from yourself as you can be, but remember youre still in there.

Your friends care and love you. They want you okay.

**Mystyx** · August 7th, 2004, 03:31 AM

I happen to agree COMPLETELY.... Alison I love you... you know that... there is nothing I would not do for you.... your my friend, thru and thru and you mean so much to me in my life then you know... to imagine my life without you... I don't ever want to...

I know your going thru a hard time inside.....your suffering unbelieveably and your pain is very very real..... you need time to yourself...to heal... so take it.... but one thing you need to learn for sure.... and we all have been here and learn this by some tragic / major event or crossroad in our life.... we all come out of it in our own way too.. in our own time... you will too.. is that you and only you can allow someone else to make you feel worthless and nothing.... you should be able to stand on your own without the need to allow someone elses actions, words or lack of, determine your value..... you can no longer blame anyone else for your pain.... just yourself.... you have the power to keep it alive or smash it dead and see it for exactly what it is...... you have in abundance what so many would kill for.... look around.... SEE what is before you, not whats behind you.... when you finally do that... you will move forward...

the road to healing comes paved with many bumps.... for a while every step forward encompasses 2 steps back.... but it can get to a point of self destruction if you let it.... are you letting it?? It's a damn rollercoaster that can drive us mad.... but you will need to get off eventually and start walkin on your own and do it one step at a time, one day at a time... don't look back... just ahead.... see what you have, not what you don't...

I for one do not like seeing anyone suffer.... I can't handle it.... especially those that I care for... [img]graemlins/cry.gif[/img]