peace

[Non Phixion]

hey peeps.... i'm takin off from the pool for a while.... don't know when i'm gettin back.. just a bit too much shit for me to handle i guess.... and i don't want ya to think i'm runnin away and letin FOAD and chloe win.... cuz i don't see this as a game.... i feel awful.... not only have i lost my best friend chloe.... but i have to watch her make what looks to me like the biggest potential mistake of her life.... thats really fucked up to me.... anyway.... i just want to tell you guys how much i respect each and everyone of you..... every single person i have come across in the pool has had an imapact on my life.... and not one experience was bad.... i have learned so much from each and everyone of you..... and for that i thank you

Deb.... from the first time i met you.... i knew in my heart you was gonna be a friend like no other.... you have taught me so much from just our day to day talks.... not once have you ever betrayed me.... you have always been honest with me and sincere.... you have helped me through so much..... you have been there for me when i have needed you most.... because of you i feel as though i have a sense of direction in my life now.... and that was the toughest thing for me to realize... that i was good enough to get what i want out of life..... anyway.... i truely admire you for who you are.... and you are one of the most beautiful people i have ever met.... i just hope everyone sees you as i do.... cuz if they don't.... they are truely missin out

mel-i have already told you what i think about you but i want everyone to see it.... your one hell of a woman.... you are like the most kind hearted people i know.... you never have intentions of hurtin anyone.... you are never afraid to tell your friends when they have taken somethin too far.... but until that point..... you stand right beside them.... and just knowin mel is beside ya.... is one of the best feelins a person can have.... your truely a woman of knowledge mel..... no matter how hard you try to play dumb.... your inteligence seeps through.... anyway.... you be me friend foreva.... and i has always got ya back

snails- well what can i say.... we have had one serious argument since i have know you.... which i must say *lookin at your track record.... is pretty much as good as it gets.... but i have to say.... i think once we actually got to know each other.... i think a mutual respect was formed.... i think we both see things in the same light.... and we are aware of exactly whats goin on.... but we just react differently.... and i truely believe that if there wasn't a snails in this world.... there couldn't be a Non.... your one hell of a smart guy.... and i hope you know that.... and foreva... you be my boy....

Jen- well we to have had our disagreements.... but you was da first person i really met on here.... i think we got a friendship that could never be lost..... it just has to be put on hold at times.... i mean you are so incredibly caring and thoughtful towards all your friends.... even tho you don't show it in the open.... in PM.. you are always quick to show just how big your heart is.... you are one of the strongest people i know in here.... and i just hope you see that in yourself.... i love ya Jen.... foeva and eva... btw... no one else has ever listened to me spit my hiphop lyrics when i'm bored until 5 in da mornin

Sniffs- your what i need 90% of the day.... just pure laughs and a solid friend..... we can sit around and joke for hours but still have that feeling of a friendship that will last a life time.... we have both been through some crazy shit in our lives (well who hasn't) but i think we connected because of it.... and i think we are both stronger people because of it.... and i love how we have pushed on through and can still see the humor in life.... your the greatest Sniffs... me wuvs ya

-T-Rex *beats the livin piss outta you with a four pound sledge hammer *LMAO.... dude... your the man.... your just like my real time friends.... your a funny cocky little fucker that don't back down from no one.... i admire that.... it's people like you that really make life interesting.... you were always there late night with me even after Ker and snails went home.... and you were always willin to help me with anything i needed.... you is also me boy.... *kicks your ass to make room for the next person *L

Blanc- i havn't known you all that long.... but i have never hit it off with someone so quicly as i did with you.... your just simply amazing.... everything you say makes me wish you were my next door neighbour... we would just be too good of friends in real life.... your full of beauty and you have soo many ways of expressin it.... trough your paintins, to your words.... everything that you do represents just how special you are as a person.... you have saved a big spot in my heart.... and no matter what that spot wil always be reserved for you

-Sam.... what more can i say other then your just the most down to earth person i have ever met in here.... your just someone who has there head on straight.... i hope everything works out in life for you cuz you truely deserve it.... your a good man charlie brown

-Johnny man you be alright wif me.... always there when i need ya and just a good guy all round.... and not once have ya ever booted me for hittin on Trix *LOL j/k.... you know she is the one that hits on me *L.... anyway take care

Trix-.... i have never really had too many deep discussions with ya.... but what i like about you.... is whenever you feel somethin is wrong wif me...... i get a PM with you askin if everything is ok..... only for the serious things but thats what counts to me... you have always shown me respect and for that hopefuly i have returned the favour.... good luck with everything and take care of Johnny.... cuz he gets outta line when i'm not there *L

-Genie (the monitor) damn girl.... me loves ya more then ya could ever know.... your real.... you make me belive that their are still some really god people out in this world.... every convo that we have ever had has brought a huge smile to my face.... your one strong woman but with a heart big enough to fill the world ten times over with love... you will be missed and i hope that all goes well with the store.... loves you

-2CUTE.... well what can i say.... your just one of the sweetest people i have met.... you always make me feel i'm important.... just by the way you greet me when i come in da pool to the long convos we have had back when most didn't know who Non Phixion was.... i have always respected your judgement and i hope all is good wif you.... and you are the only one to ever milk my prostate.... love the 2

-Hank.... well you and i have talked a long time ago and i think you still remember that convo..... it was a time when i was fightin asomeone in the pool and no one said anything to me just because they didn't really know me.... but you PMed me lettin me know that you were on the same level..... and what you said was just so true that i had respect for you since that day.... we also have been in an argument.... but i needed to say what i had to.... and you needed to say what you had to.... but i know if i was ever backed in a corner you would be the first to lend a hand... you is aight wif me Hank

-Kerala.... you and i are alike in alot of ways..... we see things on the same level.... your wild, crazy and are one of the deepest people in the pool.... we have had some amazin times together and some long personal talks..... and always we seem to agree.... your one of the good ones Ker..... your smart beautiful and have lots of love to give.... me will always love ya

Shawn- you were another one of the forst people i met here..... you was always out goin to a point where i almost didn't belive you were a reg.... you have always stood by me and you will be my bro forever *cheers

T@Z- you have just always been cool with me.... we have never really talked which kinda sucks cuz i always got the impression that you was a great guy.... anyway take care and hope all is good wif summer *waves to summer

-minnow..... damn.... your just one of the sweetest little fishies that ever did swim da waters of da pool.... you to are one of the strongest women i have ever met and also one of the kindest most down to earth lovin people aswell.... you have a lot to deal with right now but i promise that you will come out ahead.... i mean how can you not.... you have a great guy like phant who is at your side forever.... good luck and i'm sure i will find you elsewhere

-phant man it pisses me off that we were ever in a fight.... you turned out to be one of the nicest people i have ever met.... and if you see this thread do me a favour and use the word rap in a non hiphop fashion.... i still get a kick out of your lingo.... even tho it be proper english.... anyway take care man and i know i don't have to tell you but your one lucky man to have minnow..... you and her will have one hell of a life together good luck

-heidi.... we have never really spoken.... well not heart to heart.... (cuz your always busy cyberin snails).... but i see you as a great woman who is strong enough not to back down under any circumstances.... wish i would have had a chance to get to know the softer side of you cuz i'm sure there is a lot more to you then what i got in the pool.... but just knowing you was a pleasure and RUN AWAY WITH SNAILS damnit.... i've never seen such a sicinin relationship or whatever you call it in my life..... your just made for each other *pukes *L

-Dream.... you be a fine woman Dream.... you have listened to my shit in the pool wheni was preachin about everything that was wrong.... you even said thank you to me for postin my crazy ideas.... for that i know you heard me out and you went beyond your roll as a monitor and just let me spill my guts.... shows true character in my books....

Nitro- you have always heard me out.... no matter what i said to you you respected what i had to say.... i think thats pretty big of you seeing as how there was soo much shit goin on and i probably just seemed like someone attackin you.... and tell Sony off for me if you havn't already.... they suck ass

-Chills.... i miss you soooo much..... i miss our talks.... i miss just sayin the name chills..... you have always been a true and dear friend of mine.... and for all who are readin this..... just cuz i'm gone don't mean we arn't still gonna get some money together to get Chills a new mother board.... so let me know what your PO box is.... someone will have my e-mail.... and anyway.... your just a sweet heart and i love ya always

-GOD.... ya know what man.... you is one hell of a good guy.... i used to see you as MY ATTITUDE and kinda be intimidated by you... but i found out you is just a good level minded dude that drinks and burns erbs.... if i still puffed i'd be kickin back wif you sparkin a bowl and watchin the simpsons

-Blaze.... your just an all round good woman.... you make me laugh and smile and also make me feel special.... you always seem to make time to hear me ramble on about nothin and you even pretend to listen j/k i know ya listen.... but honestly i think your incredible and i know for sure all will be good wif you

-Genie wit the booty Emp and Mystic and Macy
i havn't gotten to know you guys as well as the rest.... but you are all what made comin to the pool so much fun..... we could always laugh and and just talk about jack shit.... thats what i miss most.... just the good times with nothin more then a few honest laughs.... you guys will be missed by me for sure.... me loves ya all

ok fuck.... i'm sorry but me beers are done and it's 3:30 in the mornin here and i need to get some rest..... i'm sure i missed a lot of people but i will get back to this.... you have all been there for me at one time or another and for that i will never forget you (cept when i'm drunk like now).... and for those that i missed..... honestly i'm fuckin dead tired.... you all take care and i hope ya know just how much each and everyone of you will be missed

Peace

[Jen!]

Brandon I love you. Dont go to far please, we still have a lot to talk about, and I will be here when you are ready. Take care and be well.

[snail]

Well I couldn't sleep and come in and see this.. Non take a few days to get perspective on everything...i know exactly how you feel, and it sucks. To be betrayed but you can't hate the person sucks more than anything. And probably a few weeks to shake it off and just place everything where it belongs is needed for you.

BUT you're not gonna stay away, because i'd miss you. And there aren't that many people I'd sincerely miss when they're not here. I just recently realized how much on the same level we are and Im not gonna let you leave till I finish picking your brain. *L

There's no other way to put it, what chloe did was fucked up. People say it's her choice etc..but she spent time earning a trust with you that she threw away for a thrill. Anyway you cut it ...well everyone knows how i feel about chloe right now. You'll get over this..and indifference will be bliss. But you're gonna get your ass back in the pool when that happens...cus you're not done connecting with the freaks there.

take care of yourself...and talk to you soon.
btw my email is [email protected] if you wanna get some stuff off your chest.

[heidi!]

Well since Im already late for school cause I stayed up too late..*looks at snails*..Im goin to post shortly about this..Non...Im sure every one of us have been disappointed and hurt by someone they met online...I know I have and I know the first reaction is to say enough of the pool..Internet ect..So I understand where you are coming from...
Chances are it wont last..but getting away from here will put things in perspective for you...You will forever meet people in you're life that wont live up to you're expectations...Its a harsh reality when that someone happens to be someone you care about...When they turn out to be no one you thought they were...and On here that happens way too much....If you really enjoy chat..If you will really miss you're friends in the pool..Then dont let one bad experience stop you from having many good ones...its a learning experience so take the lesson suck it up and move on....You will be just all the wiser for it..
Most havent seen my "soft side" because I learned this lesson long ago...So Non..good luck with it...and hopefully i'll see you sooner than later..

[Sniffer]

and what about the other 10% of the day???
*HUGS* you tight.... still got me on ICQ though... don't forget that! *smooch*

[2CUTE]

*sad lil sigh*
You'll be missed Nonny..you're a really special guy. I understand the reasons you're taking a break, and I think it's probably a very good idea. You have me on ICQ and Yahoo...I expect to see your cute lil ass on them to say hi, cuz I am still gonna visit Canada, and you are one of the people I wanna meet...got it? *G

"Understand and make people feel good...that's what Brandons do"...and you sure weren't kidding *smooch* love ya!

[CrazySam]

Non, Take the space, K? Sort this all out in your head. It'll take you some time till you finish second guessing things. ALl the little whatifs, like what if I didn't fall off the net for a bit etc. BUt at the end ya are prolly gonna have to face the fact that it wasn't you. Powerlessness sucks. Been where you are, where the more you do things right, the more it blows up in your face, *thinks about ex wife* Ya need to talk, Deb knows how to get me bro, but take the time

[~* Empress *~]

Non,knowing you has been one of the best experiences of my life.I just want to let you know that I am here for you if you need anything.Lord knows that we all have had some bad experiences in the pool and I for one think we learn from it.You are truly a wonderful man and I am so glad to have met you.*S*..If you need anything let me know.You used to have my email but if you don't you can always get it from Genie..Love you ! *S*

[~Deb~]

Brandon...What can I say to you..*smiles*..You..are one of the most level headed..wise beyond your years..intelligent..charming..and funny young men I know..I loved meeting you..and learning who you are..You are very special to me..I was SO looking forward to really getting to meet you..When you came to talk to me last night...and tell me you were leaving..I truely did cry..but for selfish reasons..You need the break..you need to get away from this for awhile...and reflect on the things that are truely important..

When I told you so many times...that you CAN do whatever you want...I believed it..and I still do..YOU..got it going on hon...Don't let anyone hold you down..

You have my phone number..you have me on icq..you have my email addy..Use them..

*loves her Nonny very much..and is sad to see him go..but understands...

[Hank]

Non, I understand why you're taking a break, but I hope it isn't for very long. You're a very decent guy, and even when you and I were fighting, being mad at you was hard to do... because I have a lot of respect for you and I know you're a real good guy. Before I even knew who you were, Wendee was telling me what a nice guy you were... and if she liked you, I knew there had to be something special there. And she was right, and you're special to every one of us here, and you'll be very missed for the time you're gone.

What chloe did in the first place was messed up... but most people wouldn't fault her for it and said being with FOAD was her choice, and I guess it is. But she took it way too far when she flaunted it by being all lovey dovey kissy wissy with him in front of you. And there's no way that wasn't intentional. None of us had even seen them do that outloud before when you weren't there. They did it just to do it in front of you, and it seems, to hurt you. And that's so wrong, because you don't deserve it. You didn't do anything wrong, and I'm sorry you're the one getting hurt here, you shouldn't be.

You've done good by all of us. Take care of yourself, and please come back here soon.

Write if you need anything: [email protected]