10am

**Beautiful~Mistake** · December 21st, 2003, 05:24 PM

sitting in the waiting room...

well folks.. i'm just here, waitin on my ride to get here so i can leave..

.. my bags are packed, the car is waitin, my greatest fear, you're left alone.. once again my life sweet darlin, i've made my bed, i'm coming home...

LONG LIVE FREEDOM! where i come from; place that i call home.. standing outside, saying good bye, it tears me up to go..

because i feel so scared when i'm all alone...

this place ride's long and i miss my home..

these wheels keep turning on and on..

sooooo many songs are runnin thru my head right now.. so much stuff... i wanna back out now.. i don't wanna go..

don't make me gooooooooooooo *sobs

.... it's a battle on my own, but steadfast right by my side.. machinery you can't control

i hope you all have a good time this holiday season, and we'll see you in the new year... i can't promise the outcome of my trip, but we shall see.. *S..

i have so much to think about.. so much reading to do.. books to write..

needless to say.. roberta helped me sooooo so much the past week or so and she's opened sooo many doors for me...

blargh.. i'm babbling.. anyways.. take care, everyone.. and all that holiday bullshit..

i'll try and stop in to drop you a line.. let ya know i'm still alive.. if yer curious.. ask rant, if anybody'll know what's up, it'll be him.. and take care of that mother fucker while i'm gone, eh.. someone's gotta keep an eye on him..

*waves sadly