Journal Entry 11-21-2000

[dwim]

Indianapolis, In
got off work at about 5pm - stopped at kroger's just for Pop Tarts & Coke - The cashier asked where I had been- told her I was on vacation - It was freezing cold - snowing- but it wasn't thick enough to stay- saw my apt. for the first time in a week & a half- liked how warm it was- nice & toasty- got into bed about 6:30 after reading a few poems- some out of the Bible of Outlaw Poetry & Gasoline by G. Corso- woke up about 2:15pm & just laid there until 3 pm- watched some stupid cartoons shows on Fox and 7th Heaven- turned the tv set off at six. Pulled some socks on - sweatshirt- trying to think of warmth- needs to stay warm but it was cold out in my car- engine cold- tired today- vacation too long? Nah- went to Lockerbie Coffeehouse- looking for company & friends- the redhead's working the counter- she says the smoky room is cold- lets me borrow her scarf- she came to wrapped it around me- wool scarf- she wrapped it around my neck- I felt weird- not an usual situation for me- she gives me my coffee- I said that today is my birthday- as a gift- I got chocolate muffin- there's a girl trying out handcuffs- she's hyper jumping all over the place- takes my ashtray puts another in it's place- even as I was smoking- chess game in progress- got to go to work in four hours- 2:36 this morning 26 years ago- I came to kiss the world- 2:36 this morning this year- the world has put me to work- I am 26 years old today-

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Etheridge,
when I saw the snow
this morning as I
was coming to my apt.
I thought of the
haiku that
you wrote.

I was sitting by
the window here
in my Indianapolis apt.
& I saw it snowing
it was cold
that for darn shore
Feels like
I'm looking for you
right now.

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Lockerbie Coffeehouse Haiku

Coffeehouse people
sitting & talking about
coffee in their cup.

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All I want for Christmas is a two dollar bill
Nothing else matters but hey-
I'd like to have the golden dollar
w/ Susan B. Anthony
or hey-
money from France
Russia
Cuba
Spain
Ireland
I will save all the foreign money
that I can get
so I can plot my escape
from everybody.

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Everything feels weird today. Lots of unfamiliar people in the Coffeehouse. Saw ________ _______ but she didn't stay to talk. Thinking that's ____'s car out there but maybe it's not. I'm feeling worn out- tired- beat- yawning & I am still wearing that redhead's scarf & here I am sitting by the door- feeling that cold wind & I am freezing! I wonder if that poetry night is still going on at Festivilla-
Damn- it wasn't _____'s car- ah well-
Off to Festivilla I go - even if it's just for awhile-

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note: just thought you all might be interested in what I was thinking about on my b-day.

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I try to be humble but this guy threw my greatness in my face! I'm trying to deny my greatness!

"Everything belongs to me because I am poor." - Jack Kerouac Visions of Cody

[Jezebelle]

Happy Birthday!